During the month preceding September 11, 2002 was indeed a miraculous period of my life.
After gave up on ‘my’ enlightenment, I lived a day at a time, simply continue doing my work, humbly. My emotion was quieter and lighter, and more in a prayer-like state.
And one day, I started to experience – a miracle.
I realized, when I am in a state of prayer, in a state of grace, when I am feeling beauty, compassion, and love, I CAN PROLONG moments of ‘being present’ – for a quite long time, compared to a standard what I could experience before. Perhaps a few minutes at a time at first.
I noticed I was able to sustain the ‘presence’ as long as I could sustain these emotional state I was in. I was definitely able to acknowledge that “I exist in the present” and able to act while staying in the present.
I experienced a warm sensation in my upper chest in these moments…emotion from higher emotional centers…
It was exciting and miraculous. I did whatever I could to evoke these emotional state – listening to fine classical music, reading poetry, looking at beautiful artwork, and prayers, and I experienced a prolonged presence.
I was able to say “I can be present and I can stay in the present!”.
And on the night of September 11, I went to bed with this prayer-like emotion, relaxed, laying down, and some minutes later I was unexpectedly filled with a whole body orgasm. I was transmuted, and a new inextinguishable awareness was born.
It was indeed a miraculous period of my life.