enlightenment…

happens as a result of battles inside of you…
light and darkness

feeling and seeing your weakness…manifested….
and feeling…something is not right….

I do not want to be like this….
but…weakness wins…..

seeing myself doing things because of fear…
because of feminine dominance…
while feeling something is not right…

fear of losing control….
control of others, control of what might happen to me, control of energetic balance between friends…
while feeling something is not right…

Struggle of the Magicians…battle of darkness and light

After year after year of battles, weakness…still wins…
feels helpless….

but you did not know….
light was growing stronger inside of you.

One day, the day comes…when you put all your courage, all your might, all your trust, and say
I cannot go on like this anymore.
I choose to surrender…
I surrender to my light…
I surrender to my trust…
I surrender to the forces guiding me…
I surrender to my pureness…
Let it be so if my life collapse because of this…..
Let it be so if I lose friends…..
Let it be so whatever happens because of this.
Let it be so.
But I choose to surrender……to my light.
Suddenly….you find…lightness….freedom….happiness…smile….and love…inside of you.

You encounter weakness yet again…
light struggles…..
wins sometime…lose…still often….
yet light is stronger….
growing stronger…..